January is strange in schools. You should be relaxed and refreshed after 2 weeks off but the reality is a crowd of zombies.
OK, you have had a break from teaching but: entertaining, late nights, perhaps a little more alcohol than you would normally have and everything else that the Christmas & New Year period entails hardly make it a holiday.
On top of all that there is the insomnia. The night before I go back to school I always worry but after Christmas it is worse. I do not think I am alone!
Firstly, remember we worry because we care! We want the best for the children we teach and losing some sleep is a symptom of this.
Your feet haven’t touched the ground for the past 2 weeks, opening the laptop was never going to happen, despite your best intentions. Planning while the in laws/neighbours/random strangers (delete as appropriate) are being entertained is generally frowned upon, so you are completely unprepared. You haven’t got the excitement or adrenaline you get in September when everything seems new, you know what to expect and that might not be a good thing!
But worse than this is the expectations. This is the term where you (or the children you teach) need to make progress! There is nowhere to hide, you have had a term to get to know them, mould them and build the foundations – now you need to show what a great teacher you are! Is this a pressure you are putting on yourself, does it come from your SLT or is it the current culture in Education? Probably a mix of all 3 but unless you have a crystal ball I’m sure that assessing without levels has only added to the pressure.
Add to all of this the knowledge that the children you are going to try to teach are also going to be a crowd of zombies, how could they have recovered already from staying up to see the New Year in? It is no surprise that you can’t sleep – neither can I! There isn’t anything you can do about it, just rest in the knowledge that you are not alone and that in a few days the chaos of Christmas will be long forgotten.
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Despite all of this, my worst fear for tomorrow is tinsel! Is there anything more depressing than tinsel in January? I hope I remembered to take it all down – did you?